Mein Engel ist irgendwo da draußen..

"Like a phantomrider, always die on their own.."
Crush those thoughts for your angel is out there waiting for the right time to be set free and when she finally arrives in front of you, you will just know she was meant for you :)

He was awaken by the Sunrise shining to his eyes through the clear glass windows. The sheer curtain was not a handy use to that one hotel room in Tokyo as his eyes were wide open, dusting off the sands of the night. To him, being in Tokyo was like a dream that he find it hard to make it happen but he was ought to realize that the wish he once made a long time ago has been heard and granted. There he was, waking up on a lovely morning in his ever most loved city. He was happy indeed, smiling wide, grinning charmingly until it ticks him that his dream come true has left a few bits of its essence to perfection.

The queen sized bed was rather spacious, look as though something is missing or most likely someone should be there, lying on the plain white bedsheet, filling the empty spot next to him. They say, he chose the glorious world of music, money and fame to conquer his life. Well, isn't that what Rockstars always have in mind? True. But for a young Rockstar like him, it seems pretty hard to control the raging hormones of desiring what most youngsters would seek for as well as to feel high over. Yes, the 'L' word which lies in every heart of a human, Love. A true Love to be more precise ;)

"Good Morning, Baby.."
A softly spoken phrase coming from the lips of an angel was all he could ask for to be whispered soothingly in his ears to make his day stay pleasant as it is from the fresh start of the breaking dawn.

He wants to see her the first thing in the morning, right when he came back from a deep sleep. He wants to look into her dreamy eyes just to sink himself in her gaze. He wants to gently touch her face to admire her natural beauty. He wants to stroke her hair like she's the only beautiful thing that caught his attention in every single day. He wants to kiss her forehead and her cotton candy-like pink lips to wake her up tenderly, fluttered with love ♥

The saddest thing is..those wonderful stills are remained as a dream, only to be seen by him in his fantasy world because in reality, that one angel meant for him is still lost in his in sight. Inside of him silently scream, "Where is she?" The one and only who holds a key to his heart that would set him free from misery. Such a melodramatic movie reeling as the true story of his lovelife. He may have it all, looks, style, voice, passion and luxury which came to reason why he managed to capture the hearts of million lovely girls around the globe and yet that one angel still wrapped in chains, couldn't find a way to escape the gate of heaven to reach him.


To live with just an imaginary shadows of her by his side didn't fully satisfy him. He desire to make-believe that she is real for once in a blue moon to feel the love that his heart was longing for. "I’m afraid of not finding true love!" seemed to be his greatest fear. So, even if he carves those breathtaking smiles on his flawless face, it was hard to deny the fact that his smiles are the only cure for his loneliness deep inside. Know that each of his smiles represent the pain that he had to endure on to keep hoping for a heart to finally fly to him.

"I will wait for love to fly to me and teach me how to fly." - Bill Kaulitz