The Break-Up.

"We need to talk."

That four crucial words, feared by every couple and was created as a starting line of an ending, has finally came between you and Bill. And you could tell that tone in his voice, it sounded as if something is wrong somewhere.

"You know, I love you..."
"Then, what is the problem?"
"But not as much as I love..."

Your heart broke into pieces to hear this stunning rockstar of yours blabbed out the real truth. You and Bill knew well that between you and him, there was more than just a love. You were his true love, he once said that. Everything was beautiful at first, the love you had with him blossomed from a single rose to a lovely garden. You couldn't help but to wonder, what did you do wrong for him to choose another? He was certainly not the type of guy who plays around with other people's heart, not that you know of. Let's face it, he is still a rockstar, he would probably have some secrets sealed, not for the ears of a single soul to hear! 

Tears were streaming down your cheeks knowing there was someone who actually owns his heart and that someone was not you. You felt like a fool, it wasn't always your heart being played by someone whose job is to wow the crowd with an amazing act of performance with his virtuoso skill! He was indeed your favourite rockstar and your lover but somehow all of his promises turned into ashes as he started to confess his real feelings. You blamed yourself for falling madly and deeply in love with him without having a thought that he would treat you just like one of his band groupies. Maybe you have misunderstood him all this while and those treatments he showered you with is nothing close to be called as 'special'. But through his eyes he seemed to be true and sincere, was that a part of his acting?

Your heart was beating fast as your tears slowly began to ease.
"There's someone else?"
"Look, I don't wanna lie to you. I thought you, out of all people would understand this. I love you, baby but the other one needs me more than anything else, I can't just leave, we're like committed to each other since forever!"

Your breaking heart has cracked even more as his blunt words were fed into your ears. You should have known better not to fall in love that easily with a rockstar like him. But then again, you can't really blame yourself if it was fate.

"So, are you breaking up with me?"
He grabbed your shoulder and sighed. "Listen, this is for the best. I love you both but I have to choose one right now. It isn't gonna be easy but trust me, it would be worth it."

You felt like wanting to give a slap on his handsome face but since you were a sucker for his charm, you wept again, instead. "I'm sorry, I had to do this, baby. I'm truly am sorry. Music is important to me and I don't wanna hurt you." Bill came closer and wiped your tears away. "I'll be away for too long and you'll be missing me, that's not how I wanted us to be. I feel guilty of leaving you here without having me near. Because I love you so much, maybe it is better if we parted for now." Bill hugged you tight and gave you one last goodbye kiss.

You've finally realized of what he was meaning to say and his kiss was just enough to prove to you that there wasn't any other girl, there was only you. Although, you can never break the relationship he has with his music career. You knew what you had to do. Let him go. Even if it's hard for you but he was right, you'll be more hurt if he hold on to you and left you hanging, at the same time, making your love and his wilted away and soon be dead. Moreover, letting him bearing the guilt of leaving you here was selfish. In the end, you just had to accept whatever is happening between you and Bill.
 

Before you walked away from Bill, you caught a glimpse on him for the last time. He gave you a look that says, "I don't wanna let you go but I had to." and unwillingly carved a smile before he put his head down to avoid from getting hurt on seeing his so-called ex-lover leave with still carrying half of his heart.


"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were." - Kahlil Gibran

Zoom into a Rockstar ;)

The clock strikes midnight and I was changing for a late dinner invitation by my own boyfriend, of course. I mean, it's not really a dinner, more like a supper accompanied with a fun Saturday night gateway at the nearest nightclub of our town, minus the paparazzis though. Booze and body-rocking music, there aren't any other combination fitted well enough like the two of these. After a few try-ons, I finally slipped on a sexy black halter top over my torso that matched perfectly with my shiny black leather leggings. He loves black, I love it too and black is sophisticated yet sexy. So, it's classy! "Now, the shoes!" It would be easy for me to just pick one if I didn't have a floor to floor filled shoe racks courtesy of my boyfriend who was too deary of making half room of his closet belongs to me. Ignoring the ticking clock, I browsed to find one for my pretty feet to rock with for a night. "Eureka!" My eyes were shooting straight to the studded booties designed by my all time favourite designer, all hail the late Mcqueen! I shut the closet door right after and went to the end of the bed to wear them out. It was getting late, the room has cast a dark ambience with a little help from the dimmed downlights. The only thing that I could hear was the ticking clock in the bathroom. I wonder if my boyfriend had left and waited me at the car? It seems so quiet. "Too much of a fashion crisis!" that's what I thought, "I should have quicken my changing time."

Suddenly, there was a sound came dancing to my ears. The sound became clear after a few seconds only to reveal a humming voice coming from the next room. "Hmm Hmmm Hmmm Hmmmm Hmmm Hmmm Hmmmm Hmmmmmmm.." It sounded ghostly yet in a beautiful melody. The humming was like an imitation to a song that I knew and soon, little by little the words came out. "..I feel you, don't look away. Zoom into me, Zoom into me.." That pleasant voice touched my skin, filled me with comfort and a feel of warmth, it hugged me softly as it was floating in the air. I felt like I was in my own little fantasy world and this voice was my phantom of music, it lifted my soul. "..I know you're scared, when you can't breathe, I will be there, Zoom into me." Slowly like gravity, it pulled me to the direction of where it came from, out of the door and into the next room. Strangely, I was hypnotized by the beautiful sound of it and it seemed to be calling me to follow. "Was the radio on? since nobody's inside the house except for me. Did my boyfriend play the song purposely because he knew it was my favourite track from Tokio Hotel?" I followed the voice down the corridor to the living hall and surprised to see the voice was actually coming live from him. Yes, him, my phantom of music, my boyfriend or shall I say, the one and only vocalist of Tokio Hotel? "Baby, could you hurry up a little?" He ended his lines and started to call out for me without even noticing I was already in the same room of where he stood, hand-crossed for the waiting. "Aww how nice it is to have a rockstar waiting for you?" He saw me and put that sweet grin up on his face. "Wait wait, just hold that grin for a sec!" I took my iphone and zoomed into him while counting..

"3,2,1, cheese!"

"You're crazy!" 

"Baby, I'm just zooming into you."

:)

When Reality meets Heaven in a Convenience Store! ;p

I have a story for this one, enjoy aliens! ;D 

 To have seen two sexy yet hunky German boys coming out from a convenience store! WHOA, now that would make you wanna run to that store everyday, waiting for those guys to come back! even when you have to waste your money practically on bubblegum or Mentos just to make the store owner feeling rather less suspicious towards your act of stalking ;p Just pretend that it's hard for you to choose the right flavor of bubblegum for that day, hence it takes up a lot of time to spent! Wise idea, huh? Right when the bell rings, you couldn't just stop looking at the door! hoping that your favourite rockstars' faces would make an appearance. Time has passed, you just have to pick any flavor of bubblegum anyway since the store guy/lady started to have an evil eye on you. Next step, magazine racks! Flipping through magazines, now this is a genuine yet brilliant idea, why haven't you think of it earlier rather than acting all stupid on making a hard decision on the bubblegum?! Pfft! Plus, it is so much closer to the entry doors, duh. One by one, you flipped the page of the magazine that whatever your hand grabbed but your eyes were clearly concentrated to the doors, obviously. And when people around stared awkwardly at you, you've just realized that the magazine you had in your hands, let's just say, wasn't the appropriate one for girls. Playboy or Men's Health magazine would surely put you in shame! Quickly, you put them back and have a quick look to grab the Seventeen magazine! More and more people are coming but no sight of the boys. You feel so helpless and lost hopes since you've been doing this for like almost everyday since you first knew that the Kaulitz twins are regular customers of this store through the tabloids! What more, when your cellphone kept on ringing, clearly to say your mum was looking all over for you! 

 "Yes, mum. I'm on my way home, now! Bye." 

You clicked the red button to cut off the line and went straight to the cashier to do your payment. Home is where you will be heading since there wasn't any sign at all that the boys would be coming on that particular day! While you have your balance cash in your hands and busy-ing yourself on getting them into your purse, your eyes suddenly saw a familiar Audi car parked nicely through the glass windows of that store. "Isn't that Tom's car?" While you're at your state of wonder, your eyes are glued outside but your feet still do the walking, heading to the doors for an exit assuming that you went there everyday, so you have memorized perfectly of the way out direction without even looking. Too distracted on wondering if it's really Tom's car or not, the bell gives another ring. Although, your ears didn't signal the sign to you. You kept on walking and walking until it came to a point where you have bumped onto someone and the next thing you knew, you're lying on your back! "Ye-ouch! This person's body is quite hard, he must be pretty muscular", that's what you thought. 

 "Sorry, babe. Are you okay?" 

"Wait a minute, why do I get the feeling that his voice and accent sounds really familiar." As you turned to face the guilty in charged person who made you fall on your back....talk about the shock ;O Suddenly, your face turned pale like you have seen a ghost for the first time in your life. Dreadlocks for hair and that face! That familiar sexy face! And with that sexy lip piercing! Behind him, there was another one, an exact photocopy of him but with a different style approach. Less muscular but still yummy muscles! Tattoos here and there and with those distinctive facial piercings! Help, there are two sexy sex gods on the loose! :/

"Oh God, am I in heaven?" 

;p